I am 24 yrs old Muslim/Pakistani woman. I have been ually molested/abused by my own father.?

I have been abused since I was a teenager. In Islam women are kept illiterate about almost every thing so when my father first molested me I didnt know what happened but i was very sad the next morning. And he kept on molesting me saying its for my own good and threats me if I tell anyone. I suffers from huge depression. I am in love with a Non-muslim guy should i leave behind teachings of my culture and parents that I shouldn't marry Non-muslims. I am very happy with him first time in my life. I want closure. Help!!!