I need some inspiration.?

Let me explain my current situation, yes I'm aware 3 billion others are in far worse(poverty). I just need some inspiration to help me keep the mentality i've built. I was raised by men who worked for their food,luxeries and vehicles. Here I am, 20 years old, out of foster care, on my own with a family whom is on welfare and sells drugs, smokes crack, gang affiliations, hookers all that ****. When I got a check and food check from social istance, I felt like ****. I DID NOT EARN THE RIGHT TO GET THIS FOOD OR MONEY. I did not deserve this and here I was taking what shouldn't of been mine. Finding employment is next to impossible. I've handed out a resume to almost every store in the city, i'm with a employment agency and it's all going nowhere. I need some inspiration to keep myself motivated and desiring the life I want, working for food, a house and supporting my girlfriend and ****. Her birthday ped and christmas and I was un employed and couldn't get her anything. I need something to keep me going, help!!!!